Life comes to us in many flavours at many moments. A dialogue in 'Hitch' went as "Measure life not by the number of timews you breathe, but by the moments which take your breath away". 

I never noticed when this latest set of exciting breaths started, but i am not going to let them stop anytime soon, if I can do even the least about it. My planned trip to Mumbai, I realised in retrospection, was what speeded it all up inside my mind. Everything seemed to flow smoothly through my head without effort, as if someone else was advising me and guiding my course of action. It was as if I was running out of time, as if the shooting star that suddenly brightened my night sky would get dimmed from my view if I was late. It was not any particular emotion that guided me, nor any line of thought, at least back then. But as I looked at those thoughtful eyes full of questions and listened to the words of a well practised yet natural speaker, I knew I had struck gold. Here was this beautiful person I had such a good chance to know, to see so closely and understand. As the hours went by, I realised the fluidity in our interaction and the instant chemistry that had developed between us, which included a tacit understanding, that whatever the unnamed relationship we had was, it was destined for eternity.
My first pang of realisation where all this was going to was when I was reminded of the fact that no meeting in the next 4 weeks was a very real possibility. I was thrown into a tumultous exchange of opinion within my mind, of whether this simple yet beautiful thing would get off the worse if complicated things like emotions came into the picture. I got no answer but this, if it was truly meant to be special, so shall it be, no matter in what form it comes, and what name it takes. My belief was strengthened by the fact that my trip got postponed, as if another divine intervention has occured so one more weekend comes before all the others to follow, similar yet one of its kind. Only the test of time will tell me what is destined, but one thing I know beyond doubt, when I say what I have to, there shall be no guile and no hiding, only that which rings true in my heart will be said. Whether it is heard in its own right or just barely listened to is now in your hand, dear lean and hungry Cassius.

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